I'm 18 this year,
and I think I'm leading the life of a.... 50 year old.

I stay home most of the time,
I study because I have to,
I'm with my parents almost everyday.
I hardly go out with my friends (because nobody jio me booooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo)
But even if they jio me, I turn them down because I have to study (loser right)
And I have to work after my A levels
Means my shopping duration is being cut.
I want to be a tai tai,
but it's tough to find a rich husband ):

Okay whatever, I am a nerdz a mummy daddy's girl.

I don't feel like a (happening) teenager ):

AT ALL

I guess my band life is going to end in about less than 2 weeks time. Which is pretty scary judging that I've been in band all the way back since Primary 2.

Yeah, there are moments when I'll bitch about how it eats into my life and how much I feel damn bored during combined practices when the conductor is fixing stuffs with other sections.

But then again, when I think about it, that's kind of like, the place where I spent the most of my school time. No matter how much I hate it at times, I guess I'll definitely miss those times I had.

In CCPS, CCHMS, TJC.

It's like, 10 years of band life is probably going to end. And it's not because I don't want to continue, I don't think I am committed enough to continue in university. But! I'm definitely going to join TJC Alumni Band (:

I'm really going to miss my saxophone ):

TJCSB - SILVER.

TO PEOPLE WHO DID NOT HEAR US, HEAR US.
TO PEOPLE WHO HEARD US, HEAR US AGAIN.
TO PEOPLE WHO THINK WE DID GREAT, HEAR US ONCE MORE.

BECAUSE NO MATTER HOW MANY TIMES WE PLAY EXTREME MAKEOVER, WE'RE DEFINITELY MORE WORTHY THAN A SILVER. AND THAT FUCKING SILVER MEDAL IS NOTHING BUT A UNWORTHY PIECE OF (PROBABLY) RECYCLED METAL. SO WHO GIVE A FUCKING SHIT OVER THAT MEDAL. IT MAY BE THE SILVER IN LIKE CONSECUTIVE YEARS OF GOLDS AND GOLD WITH HONOURS, BUT THAT'S NOT GOING TO DETER US FROM MAKING MAGIC, MAKING MUSIC, AND PROVING TO EVERYONE OUT THERE THAT, WE MEAN WHAT WE SAY, AND THE THING GOING AROUND THAT 'TJCSB WAS VERY CONFIDENT OF GETTING A GOLD' IS A FACT. A FUCKING FACT. SO EAT THAT AND IF YOU DONT,

HEAR US.

COME SEE AND HEAR FOR YOURSELF OUR AWESOMENESS AND HOW FAR WE HAVE COME AS A BAND.

TO TJCSB PEOPLE : WE'RE GOING TO FUCKING HELL PROVE TO THOSE (IF ANY) WHO THINKS WE ARE WORTHY OF A SILVER WRONG. WE'RE SO GOING TO SHOW THE WORLD HOW GOOD WE ARE, AND HOW UNITED WE ARE AS A BAND, A BAND WHO NEVER CEASE TO CREATE THAT MAGIC WE HAVE BEEN CREATING THUS FAR. SO DON'T STOP.

AS LONG AS WE KNOW OUR EFFORTS, HARD WORK, ATTITUDE AND OUR MUSIC IS WORTHY OF AT LEAST A GOLD, WE ARE A GOLD MEDAL BAND AND BEYOND. FOR OUR WONDERFUL PERFORMANCE ON THE 6TH, WE CAN LABEL OURSELVES WITH THE HIGHEST RECOGNITION.

SHOW OUR AUDIENCE THAT REGARDLESS OF WHAT EVER COLOUR OUR MEDAL IS, OUR MUSIC WILL ALWAYS BE STAMPED WITH UNIQUE TJCSB SOUND - THE LINSHENG SOUND, ON THE 23RD OF MAY AT VICTORIA CONCERT HALL AT 7PM DURING PRELUDE 29.

SO WHATEVER HAPPENED ON THE 6TH IS NOTHING BUT A JUDGEMENT BASED ON 6 PEOPLE AMONG THE MANY PEOPLE OUT THERE WHO WILL JUDGE FOR THEMSELVES HOW GOOD WE ARE.

SO KUDOS TO EVERYONE WHO MADE 6TH MADE OUR PROUDEST DAY. THE DAY WE WILL LOOK BACK AND WILL NEVER REGRET. THE DAY WERE WE WILL TELL OURSELVES 'WE ARE THE EXTREME BATCH WHO CREATED WONDERS'

AND WE'RE GOING TO JOIN TJCSB ALUMNI AND CREATE TJMAGIC AND TJ BAND SOUND LIKE ALWAYS. THERE'S NO LIMIT TO HOW GOOD OUR MUSIC IS.

TJCSB IS LOVE AND FOREVER WILL BE <3

I AM EIGHTEEN NOW, AND YES DESPITE PEOPLE SAYING (oh my god you are so old now), I AM STILL VERY HAPPY BECAUSE - I THINK MY BIRTHDAY THIS YEAR IS SO AWESOME!

Thanks to all who wished me be it in Facebook, via SMS, call, face-to-face!

Derrick (who called me for I don't know what reason la, we don't even talk on the phone, but end up smsing), Jie Hui, Jessabelle, Eunice Teo, GV, Teresa, Eileen, Tiong Wei, Jin Hong, Edeline, Flora, Ching Kheng (aka Ella from NYJC OGL), Yan Chao, Sindy, Wen Jie, Jin Yuan, Wen Xin, Gino, Jason, Bertram, Charissa, Hui May, May, Chan Xi, Miss Li, Mrs Noordin, Candice, Grace (Brother's gf), Dennis (who so cute, ask if it was my bday today lol), Rachel Tan, Hui Wen, Wen Hui, Henry, Mat, Theen Yew, Ayto, Roy, Debbie, Leticia, Xuan Ting, Meng Jit, Sendy, Li Hui, Denise, Nicholas Chua, Mick, Ashley, Melvin, Ting Kai, Guo Xiang, Chong You, Jia Hong, Wong Yi, Jolene, Wee Shan, Fred, Audrey (who came back today for combined sectionals!), Weng Siong (who wth, came to TJC, I swear I was damn happy to see him), June, Chloe, Xue Li, Cheryl(s), Chu Wen, Ker Fern, Jia Qi, Daphne Teo, Daphne Tan, Kaizen, Shi Liang, Zhi Hao, Elliot Ong, Joanna, Kar Yong, Indora (sorry, the names were accidentally typed one after another :X), Lenon, Wan Ning, Shuhadah, Vathany etc.........

Okay I tried to remember, and I think Facebook helped a lot LOL.

Anyway, special thanks to those that really made my day so awesome,
GV: Who baked cupcakes for me!!!! Omg, sadly there are not edible
Jie Hui: Who pieced the puzzle together, amazing...
Indora: Who gave me Ruffles Original.
Jessabelle, Chong You, Dawn, Vanessa: For the mega huge Winnie the Pooh, you know I still think it's damn random, but it's very huggable :D
OG9: For bothering to buy a cake and celebrating for me, like I'm damn touched.
Vathany, Wan Ning, Shuhadah: For purposely saying it's not my birthday and wishing each other "happy birthday" then giving me a box of Dove chocolates and a damn bimbo birthday card LOL.
Teresa: For making this "Stop staring at me" sign with a "It's my 18th birthday today!" and trying to play scissors paper stone so I would lose and I have to wear the signs on. But I hang on my bag till I reached home okay!!!
25/08: For singing a birthday song to me and making 'noises' when Mrs Noordin walked past the class. You people are seriously a fun bunch and I really think JC life without you guys would be different, really really different.
You: For lying to me that you did not bring my present, for lying to me that you had to rush home yesterday because your mother wanted you to do cleaning (like why didn't I realise you were lying when you already have a maid LOL), you actually went to Dhoby to get that eposh brownie that I liked, a duck plushie that I really love, and a really pretty necklace plus a cute birthday card with 2 photos :D Though I look like shit in them (I know I look like shit all the time) I still love them all. Wheeeeee. You really surprised me :)

I'm seriously too lazy to post any birthday photos because I'm very tired and uhm, I really want to sleep.

Anyway, the jokes sharing session over dinner with Weng Siong, Jin Hong and Bertram was damn hilarious I think we almost had a heart attack laughing so badly.

And I have 3 cakes today, I think I'm going to have a few weeks supply of 'breakfast' or some sort plus I'm not into cream. But it's my birthday cake, so I have to finish it. Yay.

It's a happy day, and it's going to end. But being 18 is a coooooool thing. For those in 1991, stop saying I'm old. Because you are going to turn old soon, OKAY. LOL

HAPPY BIRTHDAY  ABEL & TIONG WEI too :)

It's the last few minutes of my birthday and I really wish I'll do well for 'A' Levels, and then for all my wishes to come true, whatever they may be :Dv

XCION IS THE WINNING CLAN!
OG 9 WON THE SKIT PERFORMANCE!
OG 9 HAD MANY AWESOME OGLS!
XCION IS THE MOST PWNAGE CLAN EVER.
WE KICKED ALL BUTTSSSSS <3

And I'm damn proud to be an alpha ogl :)

I love my OG many maaaaaaaaany. Okay, I need to go and study. I know it's already 12.16 in the morning, but too bad. I missed too many lessons.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH, I HOPE I WILL BE ABLE TO CATCH UP. But I'm quite excited to see those OGMs in TJ uniform tomorrow :x hehehe

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You didnt make it pass the 15 days of Chinese New Year.
Guess it was a good thing afterall.
You don't have to suffer anymore.

It was the first time I ever seen you flared up and it really gave me a damn huge shock because I totally did not see this coming at all. But then I know you cared that's why you were so angry.

But it wasn't really much of an issue, you really gave me a tremendous scare.

Please don't do it again, especially on me, because I won't be able to take it if I was the target of your anger :|

I just feel like talking to somebody for a few hours.

But everyone seems too busy.

The week is about to come to an end and tomorrow marks the start of...

ORIENTATION: IGNITE THE INFINITE!

I am kind of excited over it I think I'll be more excited than the ogms, lol. But, I'm like so tired I hope I'll have energy tomorrow. 6.30am omg!

Anyway, yesterday there was 'O' Level Music gathering over @ Mr. Tan's place and it was like interesting because the conversations were mainly,

"So which JC are you in now?"
"Temasek Junior College."

"So you waiting for results?"
"No, I'm year 2 this year"

"So where do you plan to study next time?"
"Probably local u I guess"

And questions directed at the boys were:

"How's army?"
"*@!&~!)$@~R$" (Conversation last for the whole night - in Mandarin)

I swear the only time I've spoken Mandarin so fluently was probably last night. Speaking with Ting Kai and Shun Ta means that you cannot not be able to speak in Mandarin because they are like what I prefer to refer them as the - Chinese Helicopters.

So yeah, Ting Kai is serving his NS, and we've seen new faces this year! Like Calista and Alvin. The class of 2007 and 2006 became the 'younger generation' whom the 'older generation' of class of 2006 referred us to as the 'Channel 8 group' and they pretty much remembered they were from Chung Cheng with our help. After not speaking so much Mandarin, I almost forgot where I was from lol.

I guess its fun, because I got to see Elisha and Joash! :D Handsome kiddos. They were thinking of setting up a fanclub for Joash but I think I'm not going to join it because Mr. Tan told him to call me Auntie (damn it) but he was convinced I was a Jie Jie :Dv

I feel very happy this weekend because I got to catch up with old friends and talking to Ting Kai after so long makes me feel like a Chung Cheng person all over again and yah, it's great to know you have such a great friend :) Yes, Ting Kai - we'll have our come-out-and-drink-kopi-eat-roti-prata session as soon as you are free on your weekends when you book out. Of course, your girl has priority HAHA :X

Yesterday was a really tiring day because I went to school for OGL stuffs, went to Thomson for relatives' house warming, then proceeded to Mr. Tan's place at Eunos :O

And today, had to attend to my dad's BMT friends (fyi, my dad is in his fifties LOL) and caught up with their sons. Yah, I just realised I'm the only daughter in all his friends' children. And yes I was very happy gambling away, the yearly affair of bua kiao. We played our favourite Blackjack of course. And I suggested the idea of Mahjong!!! :D

Anyway, common questions were asked and they asked if I wanted to go overseas to study Music, which made me kind of sad because I really like music but I didn't take music. (okay I'm not going to start this thing all over again) Well we'll see how, if I am able to apply for scholarship to study overseas, I would. If I am able to study architecture in NUS I would. I will see how things go.

My parents thinks I'll make it to architecture if I study hard. But the thing is, how am I supposed to compete with the others. Oh well.

Not the time to brood over such things. I shall go entertain those people talking to me online and reply smses.

Yay, can't wait for Orientation.
 

When it has got to go, it has to go..

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School's starting tomorrow, means -
Will I be able to do it?

Now, it's all about how to break the news.

How and when?

It's been a looooong time since I last posted. And I'm here just because..

I kinda miss this place. The thing which kept me company during those sleepless nights. Sadly, with all the busy schedule and more band practices coming up, I think I'm going to end up forsaking this place now and then.

Friday - no sectionals before combined. So that means FREE AND EASY so I can go calm down and relax before band (: I wonder if there's band on the 30th. Because if there isn't I can go for OGL mass dance and then go home late because THERE'S NO ELECTONE AS WELL. OH MY GOODNESS hehe. But then if there's band I wouldn't mind too just that I'll end up missing both mass dance tests.

It's just good to strike a balance between band and ogl. Will see how things go (:

GV: If you see this post, gimme a text, I don't know how are you since that last sms.
Teoshinn & WJ: If I feel like bitching about anything, I'll text you guys. Don't worry, I won't forget you even when I'm busy with work.

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Oh did I mention I actually had a Biology quiz like today? Like, so soon. Okay, I think I should go do my Chemistry and yah, maybe print GP outlines later and then... see how. Oh and Lucky heights today was fun, first time running that place and well.. it's fun. Oh playing that target thing on Grace's iPhone is damn fun LOL.

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WILL YOU STOP HAUNTING ME, YOU BITCH?

):

So I've got to wake up so freaking early tomorrow for OGL camp and I can't freaking sleep. What's new lah seriously. I need to purchase sleeping pills soon.

Feel so... dead.

Anyway went to J8 for dinner. Kind of saw Sirui and Ziyan but I didn't say hi. Fine, I'm a antisocial bitch okay? LOL. I was just too lazy to. My policy is just to best try to walk far far away from people you know when you are out. I mean come on, I just don't like to acknowledge people when I'm out, I don't know why. Just something I've been doing for the past few years. Imagine if they didn't see you - and if you dress like some slob, some damn auntie type of attire. Or if you are having a bad hair day, or maybe you look damn horrible - sees you after you says hi, they'll probably be like 'OMG LOOK SO FREAKING AUNTIE AND UGLY'

That's what I feel lah okay. I'm a very weird person, I know that. Not just that, I'm already not very pleasant or sweet looking, I am just this fatso who is damn ugly and will still be this fatso who is damn ugly even if I dress my best, so I just don't like to say hi to people when I'm out.

But I always bump into people when I go out so it's a bad thing.

Probably this should be one of my new year resolutions this year..

Ahhhhhhhh 3 more days to the reopening of school. OH MY GAAAAAWWWWWDDDD. And I've received news that school ends at 10AM because there's Open House prep, rehearsals and whatnots. HAHAHAHA, if that's true, it probably means that I DONT NEED TO COMPLETE MY MATH ASSIGNMENT BY MONDAY :OOOOOOOO

WINZZZX

Yeah, holiday assignments are just like nincompoooooooop. (Can't believe they actually have the definition at Merriam Webster and Wikipedia)

I've got Math eLearning to be done. Half of Assignment 2 and 3, AJC Promo Paper to be completed. Chemistry tutorials to be finished and also my GP essay outlines to be drawn out.

I DON'T WANNA DO HOMEWORK ANYMOREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE D: It is so painful LOL.

And I need to go to Artbox to get my organiser before school starts - seriously.

Think I'm going to skip Electone tomorrow. I foresee I'll be tired from the OGL Camp LOL. Yeah, I can be a potential fortune teller already.

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Just downloaded Google Chrome and am trying it out. So far so good. The incognito icon is really cute HAHA.

And all I've got to say is.

DAMN IT LAH

):

HAHAHA I KNOW THIS HAPPENS TO BE KIND OF LATE THAT I AM TYPING ABOUT RESOLUTIONS WHEN ERM, 7 DAYS OF 2009 HAS PASSED ALREADY.

But still.

MY RESOLUTION WOULD BE TO RESOLVE MY RESOLUTIONS LAST YEAR! :D

Okay that does not really make any sense to me, because I don't remember having any resolutions last year (which was WHY 2008 WAS SUCH A UNACCOMPLISHED YEAR) But anyway come let's see...

1.  I shall be a good girl and not procrastinate
2. I gotta study during my bigass fat and holy schmoly breaks
3. I must not get distracted (yes WJ, you probably know what I mean after what I told you last night
4. Be a good Math student (HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA, crap this is so challenging)
5. Practice hard of Extreme Makeover (of course I will)
6. Study hard for 'A' Levels (so stressful)
7. Abstinence from the menancing temptations to want to go online so often

Okay, enough I shall stop blogging. Xinyun just ask me to put the blank face HAHAHA. Okay and we just split ribena damn it LOL. Off to go clean it, byeeeeeeeeeeeeeezxx

*and my lungs are going to fall out*

Oh lord, please stop all the coughing. I feel like I've infected tuberculosis, like I am some drug addict that's undergoing rehabilitation (they try to make me go to rehab but I said, no no no!). And and and - I feel so embarrassed whenever I cough on the bus, I got this feeling that everyone treats me like as though I'm a plague or something ):

And I hate it when I cough so much I almost puked last night. And I've been unable to sleep every night.

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Sectionals today was good. Learnt many things, yay. Thanks Luther for coming back to conduct sectionals! :D And we will have a full section outing on Sunday (hopefully) :DDDDDDv

I wonder how was Swensons, hmm

Holidays are going to be over and I still wake up thinking about whether I need to go to school everyday, I know it sucks because there isn't a day that I can sleep in peace properly knowing that for the next week or next month I've no school. Because there's practically school every freaking week.

Mr. Wong (the cute Math teacher :D) sat in for lunch yesterday and what he said is really true "guess you guys are used to having your holidays burnt already" Like cmon, I've been in band since Primary 2 and every holiday = band practice. And with the SYF in the coming year = more band practice after 12AM.

So good luck, I need to get myself mentally prepared so that I won't break down lol. I'm really hoping that I won't screw up my parts for EM and I want to improve on my tone because I think my solos still sounds... crappy. Esp 431.

A Levels, SYF, MCT.

Come to think of it I don't actually think of MCT as a bad idea because for some reason it forces me to study. Especially when the frequency of band practices is going to increase it probably means the higher tendency for me to slacken in my studies.

Like Mr. Wong said yesterday "Learn to let go sometimes" I kind of grinned when I heard that, lol.

Yeah, see how things goes and good luck to everyone who is going to have a hectic year ahead.

In the mean time, back to more Math. (!#*@!(@$*!#%)!&@$!(#@$&!@$) :Dv

May : 50% 100%!!!!

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Half an hour of sleep - I couldn't fall asleep last night, God knows why I can't :/ Started doing Math holiday assignment at 3AM and after finishing assignment one (HAHA, yes Rachel the mega hater of Maths managed to finished it - albeit with like plentiful of spaces left in between the questions just so I can copy from ask my friends LOL) Then I forced myself to stop and sleep but ended up reading Flowers for Algernon again at 5AM (because I got reminded of the book when I saw it over at deadthrattle / Colleen's blog.) Finished it by 5.45AM, well you see I read it from the short stories series that we had to buy back in Chung Cheng when we were..... Secondary 2? Sad stuffs. Still couldn't sleep. Stared at the skyline for half an hour, and stoning. Seeing how cool it is to watch a light that's about few kilometres away getting brighter and dimmer.. brighter and dimmer. Still couldn't sleep. Dad woke up already. Kept sliding my phone (like as if somebody would sms me at that weird time) Read my inbox just because I was bored. Got sick of doing that for the past 12 days, chucked my phone away. It was already 7.15AM, finally yawned (OMG) fell asleep about 15 minutes later, and my alarm rang another 15 minutes later. Woke up, walked to the toilet, Dad was bathing. Went back to sleep. Woke up at 8AM, toilet vacant - time to wash up and go for band. Zzzz

Band today, bad choice. Sore throat worsen, I'm going to start to speak like I've fully developed an Adam's apple. Opened my throat too much today, tonguing still as sloppy, 278 still not clean. Gotta keep working on it ): Anyway saw the Alpha HC, they were so cute, showed me the new cheers and I think they were really nice :D Yay Alpha is so going to kick butts next year during Orientation undefined. And and, I'm going for OGL on the 5th Jan just so that I try to recall the mass dance steps, bah. Damn long since I last went for any mass dance. Hopefully nothing will clash with OGL camp, even if there is, I'm going to skip it - so not going to miss OGL camp.

Anyway headed for Bugis with May to buy her markers after having lunch with Gino, May, Chiaw Hong, Vanessa Poh, Charlene Khor and Samuel. Quite dumb because I totally forgot we could take 12 and we took 197 instead. Definitely due to the impaired senses. I'm like, surviving on adrenaline.

P.S May, I know today was a very weird day. We are both having sore throat, we bumped into 2 TJ people back to back, we met a weird ah tiong who wants to get into NAFA when she doesn't know how to design and asked you to design for her (EPIC WIN) and doesn't know what the requirements were and required us to take her through her 'design screening test'. Like we said, she's so going to fail.

My voice is changing ): 

I know I'm typing weirdly and it's a sign - I NEED MY FREAKING SLEEP.

I'll wake up by 7pm, have dinner. Watch TV at 8-10 and then do Math (hopefully I will be able to have full concentration) Great, just 4 more hours :)